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Butterflies Optional Canon Ditzy
Greatest Mother

Written By Kendell 2 and Alexwarlorn

Hello, I'm Ditzy Doo. Or Derpy Hooves, I don't mind being called either. Huh? Do I find Derpy Hooves offensive? No, why would I? Both of my names mean I'm a little…clumsy, but I don't find Derpy any different than Ditzy. I don't mind being clumsy or that ponies think I am, why should I be?

Plus, the Doctor says he finds it kind of "whimsical". He has ever sense we met at the Summer Sun Celebration when Nightmare Moon escaped.

…I'll admit, I actually did consider changing my name after what Discord did…But my psychiatrist told me that'd be giving into the hate he forced into me…I'm still not sure…

How am I doing?…Well…I'm doing alright I guess…Wait, who are you guys? Oh, ok, just interviewers…Sorry, last time something like this happened was…was when…

Do you know what it's like to be afraid of losing the thing, the one, that means more to you than anypony in the entire world? That's what Discord did to me…He convinced me that Dinky, m-my little muffin…that they were going to take her away from me…He made me think there was nothing I could do that wouldn't hurt her…He made it seem like hurting her myself was the kindest thing I could do…Then made it so I didn't love her…that I didn't love anypony…that I HATED everypony for being mean to me, I even hated my own parents for the name they gave me…And I hated my little muffin for not being a perfect daughter, for anything I could find TOO hate her for…I yelled at my baby, hurt her, said she wasn't mine, that she'd never be mine, even when Discord turned her into a pegasus, that just made me hate her more, and I didn't feel one bit of remorse…I think I even enjoyed it…

Then the rainbow hit and it was like my entire world crumbled…All I could do was hug her, tell her I was sorry…We spent a lot of time doing that…I just couldn't believe I could be that cruel to my precious little baby…

Imagine not being able to feel guilt for a long time and then suddenly having it come on you all at once…That's what it was like for me…

Oh, thank you, filly. I needed a hug.

Huh? Are Dinky and Sparkler adopted? Sorry, I don't feel right talking about it with strangers…Just know I love them both and it hurts to know I've hurt either of my little muffins…Why'd you look sad for a minute? Oh next question?

Yes, I know that was Discord and not me! I've seen the psychiatrist ponies…But some of them…Some of them tried to take her from me for real…I'd never felt so scared in my entire life…Dinky had to go stay with Sparkler for a few weeks while we sorted it out…Thank Celestia the Doctor and Carrot Top were there to vouch for me, even though they still had a lot of their own problems they were dealing with.


"Now look here!" the Doctor said, glaring across the desk at the psychiatrist. I hadn't seen him that mad since…Oh wait, he told me not to talk about that…Just know when he gets mad its never a good thing…

"I don't care who you are, I shall not allow you to take this mare's daughter from her, understood?!" he stated, not taking his eyes off the psychiatrist for a second. Sometimes I forget just how scary he can be when he's really angry.

"I understand your anger, sir," stated the psychiatrist, he tried to stay calm, but I could tell he was shaking in his hooves. "But we have to think of the child-"

"Think of the child?" Carrot Top asked, looking madder than I'd ever seen her. The orange hair made her seem even more mad…I wish she'd let it grow out again, I think it looks so much better green… "That child has been with Derpy all her life! How is it thinking of her to take her away from the only family she's ever known?!"

"We can't be certain allowing a…challenged pony like Miss Doo to raise her isn't causing her harm. And even if she WAS perfectly fine, we can't be certain Discord hasn't damaged her."

That hurt…I normally don't let what other ponies say hurt me…But that was probably the second most painful thing anyone had ever said to me…I think the Doctor knew it too.

"Listen here, and listen good," he said, glaring straight across at the psychiatrist. He didn't raise his voice, he didn't yell…He sounded so calm. I think it was a lot scarier that way. "I've known Derpy for a very long time, I know her a lot better than you. You have my word; she's a wonderful mother, I've seen a lot of mothers, doctor, but I've seen very few who love their child as much as she does Dinky, or children that love their mothers as much. Nothing Discord did to her could change that, no matter what he forced her to do. I promise you that. And I promise you that if you do anything to hurt Derpy and Dinky without good reason, you will regret it."

Carrot Top stepped forwards just then too. "I'll vouch for her as well. Ditzy might be a little clumsy, she may not be the best houseguest, she may have trouble speaking sometimes, but she's a great mother. If you take Dinky from her, you're going to be making a huge mistake."


I don't know how much what they said helped, but they still testified on my behalf the entire way, even if the Doctor was still a bit afraid of going outside at the time. He said that the Princess paid him a visit and wasn't too happy he'd threatened to hurt the psychiatrist, I didn't even know they knew each other. He said that Princess Celestia was just being protective of one of her ponies, just like he was protective of me…I can understand that. That's how I am with Dinky and Sparkler.

Anyway, I'm sure having two ponies there to vouch for me really helped convince some of the doctors to look closer at my case…

Sparkler? She, er, couldn't give a lot of recent input. But she said what she could.

Didn't I have other friends? This is Ponyville, everypony knows everypony.

Berry would have said what she could but…the doctors hadn't declared her fit to testify yet.

I think Twilight Sparkle was helping out there and may have said something to the doctors about me, but I'm not sure.

They decided I wasn't a threat to Dinky and that she's better off with me as her mother. It took awhile, but the Doctor and Carrot Top stuck by me, even while they had their own problems to deal with, but the Doctor didn't threaten the psychiatrist again. I've never been so grateful to have those two as my friends in my life. I baked them both muffins to thank them, but they both said they were just doing the right thing.

It still didn't make me stop hurting though…me and Dinky still cried ourselves to sleep every night…I had awful nightmares…I dreamt that Discord had turned Dinky into a real muffin and told me to keep circling his palace with her on my back and he'd turn her back…But he never did…And the birds, they…they just kept trying to take her from me…And I couldn't do a thing to stop them but keep moving…

Then I wake up and hug Dinky close to me, whispering that I'll never let anyone take her away from me ever again…

Dinky told me that she's been having nightmares too…That I abandoned her somewhere and told her she wasn't mine…Only those were more memories than nightmares, I guess…She has the muffin nightmare too, she's still a little afraid of birds…I can't help wondering if that's what Discord had in store for us next…

Sparkler even moved back to Ponyville to be close to us, for both her sake and ours. Discord turned her into an amethyst statue and made her dance…I almost went to Canterlot to take a sledgehammer to Discord's statue when I found that out he'd hurt BOTH my muffins…

Anyway, Sparkler went to the Sisterhooves Social with Dinky, they didn't win but it made Dinky so happy to spend time with her sister. Having her here has helped us both and her too…but not enough…

But then something weird happened, something I still can't explain really…


"Mama!" called Dinky while I made us dinner in the other room. "Miss Applejack is here! She wants to see you!"

Confused, I walked to the door. I knew Applejack, but we weren't really close friends or anything like that. We talked sometimes, but that was it.

"Applejack, mellow…What are blue doing there?" I ask, looking her over, my speech impediment making itself known I think, it's hard to tell. I know what I mean, but sometimes things just come out all wrong and I have trouble telling except by how other ponies react. Oh, you noticed?

(Interviewer's Notes (Pegasus): Yeah, it's been a headache editing the inter-OW!)

(Interviewer's Notes (Unicorn): Please continue.)

I noticed Applejack was breathing heavy, it looked like she'd been running all over the place. I found out later that she'd visited Doctor Whooves and Carrot Top too that same day. Neither of them really knew how she did what she did next either.

"Howdy, Ditzy, Dinky," she said, panting slightly. "Ah just have somethin' Ah need to tell yah real quick," Applejack said, looking me in the eyes, then to Dinky. Her eyes seemed…different, I don't know how else to describe it, except maybe she looked…smarter…but that isn't right either. More knowing I guess is a better way to put it.

"You two are the picture of a mama and her young 'un. Ah've never seen a ma and her filly as closely bonded as you two! And Ah can tell ya right now that ain't an exaggeration on ma part! You two are wonderful for each other! And Ah KNOW what you two share is stronger than anything Discord could have done to ya. Ah gotta go, got some other ponies Ah gotta talk to before Celestia's sun sets."

And she was out of the house as quick as she came before I had a chance to even offer her a muffin. Dinky and me just looked at each other.


I wonder how she knew what Discord had done to us…The only ones I'd told were the Doctor, Carrot Top, and the psychiatrists. All of them swore they'd not told anypony else about it. In fact, the Doctor and Carrot Top said she'd visited them too, same way she had me…But what she said made me feel better, Dinky too…

We already knew what she said? From what Discord made me do to the doctors trying to take Dinky away, I wasn't sure anymore.

I know the doctors were telling me a lot of what she said, but just hearing it from her:

It was like she was the oven spray that cleaned the gunk off the used muffin tray and showed the clean shinny surface underneath.

Fluttershy visited our muffin stand…I bumped my head so I kinda forgot what happened next, but I know she visited that part of town I'm told to keep Dinky away from.

The next day, a flock of yellow and pink birds with blue eyes flew into Ponyville. My nightmares flashed through my mind. They came for my muffin.

The birds sang and she got this funny look in her eyes, like one of those swirl lollypops from Sugarcube Corner. Kinda like Discord's eyes when he brainwashed me. She began walking out of the house with a smile on her face talking about having wings and her father. I picked her up and told her the birds were bad and put her down. She just began to trot again so I tied her to the spot. I know it wasn't nice, but I just couldn't let them take my baby away from me again! She walked to the edge of the rope and kept walking against our kitchen floor like she was a wind-up toy.

I took a mop and made the birds go away. They came back. So I made them go away again. They still came back. So I just made them go away again. I think I scared them. Good.

As fog rolled into Ponyville, stallions and mares went in, and colts and fillies came out. The fog rolled into our house, so I kept Dinky on the kitchen table as she kept trying to go into the fog. I wouldn't let anypony take her ever again.

I saw the Doctor outside as a colt saying I should come outside and play with him, followed by Carrot Top as a filly.

And they both looked so -happy!-

Berry said I should come into the fog because it would make everything better. I could just play with Dinky all day and never have to worry about being judged for being different ever again.

I hugged Dinky tighter as I sat on our kitchen table above the fog as it pushed under our doors and through our windows.

Then the fog had a voice, it had a face, it had a name.


Protect muffin? Protect everyone's muffin? Have the power? Just accept her kiss? And muffin would always be protected. Be her knight. Not a bad thing? How could protecting foals be a bad thing?

All the birds and fog went away of their own choice. Fluttershy said when I was ready, just open the door.

Then Sparkler came, a little filly now, just outside, I heard her voice.

"Please? Ditzy? Dinky? Won't you please come out? I don't care if it's to be our Knight, mama, or sister. Just please be with us?"

I felt my heart crack at hearing her. I wanted so badly to be with her.

Sparkler never left. I heard the other foals wanting to play with her, but she stayed just outside. It couldn't be paradise without me there to enjoy it with her.

I trotted to and from the door several times. My heart spinning.

There was no pony there to tell me what to do. I wanted to be with her, I wanted to protect my muffin, protect both my muffins, and all I needed to do, was go outside and go into the fog.

But I was selfish. I'd spent most of my life struggling with the fog inside me, I didn't want there to be -more- fog! Fog was awful. It wouldn't let you see danger, it wouldn't let you see beauty, all you could ever see in fog was lights and shadows. And for all I knew, it could be another trick by someone like Discord, pretending to just be a "friend" and really it was all a trap…

Am I mad? No, I'm not….Well, maybe I am…She tried to take Dinky away…When that happened, when she reminded me of my nightmares, when she tried to use how much I loved Dinky to use me, it reminded me of what Discord did to me… I wanted to hurt her.

I wanted to hurt her so bad I baked some rock filled muffins and sat myself near the path from her house to Ponyville. I was ready to hit her in the head the moment she trotted by.

Then Sparkler 'accidentally' sold them to Spike and he said they were the best he had ever eaten from me. Thank Celestia.

Sparkler told me not to hate 'Princess Gaia', that she was just confused and hurt.

Fluttershy told me that she was sorry, that she knows she'd hurt me by doing what she did. She said she was okay if I didn't forgive her. I could tell she really meant it. So yes, I'm mad at what she did, I'll probably be mad for long time…but I forgive her, holding a grudge won't do anypony any good…And after hating everypony when Discord controlled me, I don't want to really hate anypony ever again…

Still, even after all that I could never have expected what happened after that…


It was after dark, Dinky was fast asleep in her bed. For the first time in weeks, she was able to get to sleep without me there. I think whatever Fluttershy showed her helped her get over the nightmares…That's another reason I forgive her.

I heard a knock on my door, I wasn't expecting company, especially not that late. I REALLY didn't expect who was there.

"Art thou the mare named Ditzy Doo, otherwise known as Derpy Hooves?" asked THE Princess Luna, standing at MY door, one of her bat ponies on each side.

All I could do was look up at her in shock, I think my eyes might have gone straight. Princess Luna was at my door! I mean sure, this wasn't the first time I'd met her...well, technically it was, but this was the first time she'd come to see me!

"We asked if thy name is Ditzy Doo," Luna said, looking me in the eyes. It was like I was looking into the night sky.

"Um…R-rest, by game quiz Ditzy Doo," I reply, then notice her Night Guards giving me a weird look. "Oh! I gave this beach thing, sometimes my birds come pout wrong!"

Luna gave a nod. "Yes, our sister has told us of that fact. We actually find it rather interesting, it makes thou unique, and a world can never have too many unique ponies…We have something very important we wish to discuss with thee, may we come in?"

I almost faint, but keep my hooves on the ground. "Y-yes, Princess Woona!"

We sit down at the kitchen table, though she stayed standing. I guess my chairs were too small for an Alicorn…

"Now, Ditzy Doo, what we have to say concerns thy youngest daughter, Dinky," said Luna, as she sipped her cup of coffee.

My heart stopped. "Blur knot baking her away, are two?!" I ask, feeling my blood run cold. She gives a small chuckle. "What's so money?"

"Ditzy Doo, why ever would we take away thy daughter?" she asked, looking down at me. "Thou art a wonderful parent, one of the best we have ever seen, and we have seen many. Our sister agrees fully, she has seen even more."

I almost faint. The Princesses thought I was a good mother? "Blue mean that?"

Luna nodded, seriously. "Yes, tis why we art here. We have decided such dedication to one's child and such strength of will in resisting Princess Gaia's temptations should be rewarded."

She walks up to me and puts a medal around my neck, a gold medal! "Ditzy Doo, for thy strength of will and dedication to motherhood, we christen thee Greatest Mother and Strongest Willed Pony In Equestria."

I think I fainted, because the next thing I remember is waking up in my bed, next to Dinky. I'd had good dreams for the first time since the day of chaos. At first I thought it was just a dream…Until Dinky pointed to something stuck to the back of my head. I guess it must have been on my pillow until I rolled over in my sleep.

'Dear Ditzy Doo;

You are hereby invited to Canterlot for a celebration in your honor at the date and time listed below this message, in which you shall be publicly recognized for your dedication and strength of heart. We look forwards to seeing you and Dinky there. You are free to bring guests if you so desire.

Her Nightjesty of Dreams and Nightmares Princess Luna Nyx Selena Equestria.


Dinky and I walked up to the Doctor's blue shed later. My head was still spinning. Of course I was excited, its just I'd never had anything like this happen to me before. The only ponies I'd ever heard be invited to Canterlot for a celebration in their honor were Twilight Sparkle and her friends, and they saved the world, so I was really nervous…

From the sound of machinery cooling down, the Doctor must've just come back from somewhere. He seemed a bit angry when he came out.

"Pony feathers, now just what am I supposed to do with several tons of-Oh, hello there Derpy, Dinky, I didn't see you there," he said as he noticed us.

"Mellow Doctor, its wood to see you too," I reply, looking him over and noticing something.

"Why are you covered in ice cream?" asked Dinky, before I could even think to ask.

Well "covered" wasn't exactly right, but he did look like he'd been rolling in it.

"Oh yes, that. Well you see, while I was under Princess Gaia's spell, I seem to have gone to the Planet Of Ice-Cream and filled up half the TARDIS' cargo holds. Its strange really, I have trouble making her cooperate as an adult, but I had no problem operating her as a little colt, not to mention that I was a colt of this regeneration instead of…Anyway I tried taking it back, but apparently they don't want to risk contaminating one area of the planet with ice cream already mined. Now I'm stuck with several tons of ice-cream I have absolutely no idea what to do with."

I felt Dinky nudge my leg lightly. "Mama?"

I look down into the big, cute little eyes of my muffin. "Yes, Dinky?"

"Can I have some ice-cream?"


While Dinky had a big bowl of ice-cream, I showed the letter and medal to the Doctor. "Well congratulations Derpy, I said you were an excellent mother, didn't I?"

I couldn't help blushing a little bit. "Fall I bid was might some birds…"

"Yes, but the same birds that reduced me to a little colt without much effort at all, and you know that is no small feat," he replied, giving me a smile. "It's amazing thing, in all my travels I don't think I've seen anything quite as fearsome as a mother protecting her young! Quite amazing really."

That made me think. Sure, Applejack helped me a good bit, but hearing it put like that from a close friend, it made me feel even better.

"So fill you come?"

"Of course, Derpy, assuming I can find something to do with all this ice cream in time," the Doctor replied, looking a little confused. "Seriously now, what was I thinking? I suppose I should be thankful I reverted before I filled all the cargo holds…"

"Are you mad?"

"Well I'm still rather miffed about the whole thing, but I suppose its not completely her fault. Giving mortal beings god-like power never quite works out, they have this nasty habit of going insane with it. Plus I'm sure Celestia and Luna will have a stern talk to her about it if Celestia's reaction to me threatening a psychiatrist is anything to go by. And I will say, that was probably the most enjoyable invasion I've ever been caught up in…But you know, its interesting, despite all the trouble this caused, it reminded me of something Discord had made me forget."

"And blots that?" I asked, a little confused. What could finding himself having to deal with several tons of ice-cream (despite what Pinkie Pie would probably say, that's probably not as fun as it seems) remind him of?

"It's rather simple, really. Being a little one again reminded me of just what it was like to enjoy being out and about, seeing amazing things, going on adventures. I forgot how much I missed it!"

"Anyway, I'll be there if I can, I'm pretty sure there's a garden party I've been to twice before, or will have been to, that night too, maybe I should go to it again…"


As I approached Carrot Top's house, I saw something I hadn't seen in a long time, her happily working in her garden. She was smiling before, but it was that kind of fake smile most of Ponyville was wearing for weeks. And she wasn't looking at her garden tools like they were blood-soaked weapons anymore.

"Mama, can I play with Orange Top while you and Miss Carrot Top talk?" asked Dinky, looking up at me pleadingly.

I give her a smile. "If Carrot Top says so."

"Thanks mama!" she shouted, giving me a nuzzle and running up to Carrot Top.

"Miss Carrot Top, can I play with Orange Top?"

I see Carrot Top look up from her gardening, giving my little muffin a smile. "Of course Dinky, she's feeling better now. She's right inside."

"Thank you!" Dinky shouted, running inside to play with Carrot Top's baby sister as I approached my old friend.

"Marshmallow Carrot Top," I say as I look her over. She just looks so much happier than she did before.

"Hello, Ditzy, how are you today?"

"Well I'm alright, bow are you?" I ask, I don't want to be rude but… "Blue teem a lot happier…"

She gives a smile and a nod. "Yes, I do believe I am. Going a day without any fears or pains let me remember the things that made me happy," she replied, making me feel a little uncomfortable. "I keep hearing at the coffee shop how Princess Gaia was going to ruin everything if she hadn't been stopped, and…I'm sorry for trying to lure you into the fog, but I'm just grateful that I can enjoy gardening again. And it was pretty fun playing with Orange Top as a filly, even if we both had to wash a rainbow of hair dye out of our mane."

I nod, I suppose that makes sense. "Yeah, I mess…Carrot Top, book at this…" I say and hand her the invitation.

"My word, what a surprise! I mean, I meant what I said to the psychiatrist, but I had no idea Princess Luna would reward you for it!" she exclaimed, making me blush again. "I'll certainly be there, congratulations Ditzy."

"Bank you…" I reply, circling my hoof in the freshly tended ground a little nervously. "Um…Carrot Top…Could I marrow a press for the celebration?"

Carrot Top shook her head, looking a little sad. "I need to get a new one myself if I'm going to fit in at the celebration myself, all mine were green and I threw them out when I couldn't stand the color after the Day of Discord…But I know just the place where you can get one. Rarity's boutique, she's a very reasonable mare, and even if I don't agree with her taste in hair color, she's still got an eye for fashion, and reasonable prices."


"Um, Swiss Rarity?" I ask, walking through the door of Carousel Boutique, somewhere I've never been before. I know Rarity, like I said, everypony knows everypony, but we haven't really been friends or anything.

She was running around, working on about five dresses at once when she noticed me. "Welcome to the Carousel Boutique," she said, I don't think she was paying much attention to me, just looking at the dress she was working on. "I don't have much time to talk, I'm very busy, what is it you need?"

"Um…I seed a press to visit Canterlot," I replied, thankful nearly all of Ponyville knew about my…problem.

She stopped instantly. "Did you say visit Canterlot?" she asked, looking at me in surprise.

"Um, yeah…" I handed her the invitation.

"You're being honored by Princess Luna?!" Rarity asked, I just nod. It was a few minutes before she spoke again, she just stood there looking kind of shocked with her mouth wide open.

"Um…if pow isn't a wood time, I can…"

She snapped out of it before I could finish. "No! I would never allow a pony to attend such an event without a proper dress. Nopony should ever be honored by royalty in their street clothes!…Or with no clothes, as the case may be. Especially not when that pony is being rewarded for something as great as their status as a mother! Come over here and we'll measure you for the dress!"

She got me up on this big platform and started measuring me all over. But I felt like something was strange, she seemed a little too eager to help me. "Um, Rarity, is every being alright?"

"Yes, everything's fine!" she exclaimed, sizing my shoulder with a tape measure. "How's Dinky doing, by the way?"

"She's…fine, doing a lot better…No offense, but you're acting kind of money," I reply, looking over at her.

"Oh, nothing, I'm just really stressed out is all! Lots of work to do, not much time to do it! Now look straight ahead so I can measure your neck…er, sorry I mean with your head, not your eyes."


Rarity said my dress wouldn't be ready until after the Gaia Festival, so I just went home and waited.

Did I go to the Festival? Well I wasn't going to, except Sparkler told me it'd be really fun for Dinky. I didn't have as much fun as most ponies did I guess…But it was pretty cool to see the Wonderbolts perform, I usually can't get tickets to any of their shows and after hearing Rainbow Dash talk about them so much when we have weather team duty together, I really wanted to.

Dinky had a lot of fun, so did Sparkler, so I guess it was a good day…

I'll admit, I was still mad Fluttershy got a festival for what she did. Even if I forgave her, she still hurt me again…But I was scared when somepony hit her in the head with that rock…it made me think of what I almost did before if Sparkler hadn't stopped me.

That zebra Zecora spent nearly the whole day with Fluttershy from what I saw. . . I saw a pony wearing a party mask come up behind Fluttershy with a ribbon covered knife in their mouth. Zecora chose that exact moment to pick a flower for her 'Princess' and rear-kicked the stallion in the mouth, sending him backwards and his knife into a pie on the Apple's concession stand. The two trotted on with Zecora giving a careful glance behind her.

Everypony knows how she began singing in two voices. Still wish I knew how she did that. But she was saying that she had learned her lesson and was fine knowing some ponies still hated her, she accepted that. And I looked down to find myself clapping with my hooves too.

Zecora stayed along side her after everyone stopped clapping and she stepped down. I gave Sparkler the responsibility of the muffin stand and flew after her, keeping to the air. I think the zebra saw me even before Fluttershy did because she was reaching for a pouch of something.

I decided to land in front and walk towards her with my wings out, showing I didn't have anything hidden under them. Zecora seemed to calm down a little at that. "Um…Fluttershy, are you alright?" I ask, even if I was mad at her, seeing someone hit her in the head with a rock still had me worried.

She looked up at me. I could see a knot already starting to rise where the rock had hit. "Oh…Yes, I'm fine…" she said, but I could see her struggling not to look like she was hurt.

"…Could I bit you some ice?" I felt so guilty that I'd thought to do the same thing to her somepony else had. I guess it's a different thing to want to do something and to see it done by someone else.

"No, it's quite alright," she replied, giving me a small smile. "But thank you for the concern…" I saw her lower her head, looking guilty again. "I understand why somepony did this to me, I don't blame them. Like I said, ponies have the right to judge me however they choose, I know I did good and bad, I deserved to be judged the same way."

I didn't know how to respond to that really…How could I?


I turned and saw Dinky on top of a slide set up for the foals, waving. "Watch me mama!" she called, sliding down with an excited cry.

I couldn't help but smile. It was good to see my little muffin so happy.

"…You were her dream…" I hear Fluttershy say.

I turn to look at her with a blink. "What do blue beam?"

"…I saw the dreams of all of my foals while I was Princess Gaia," Fluttershy said, looking me in the eye. "In hers, you and Sparkler were just there as her loving family, she didn't want your eyes straight, she didn't want you to be able to talk…normal, and she didn't want you to be a unicorn like her and Sparkler…She just wanted you to be there."

I give a gasp. I thought I knew that but…with everything that's happened I just wasn't sure…I didn't know. "Really?"

Fluttershy gave me a nod. "My spell didn't give them anything they didn't want in their heart…The only things she added were her father and wings for herself."

Wings for herself? I could understand her wanting a father, I can't think of any foal that wouldn't, but why wings? Why would she-

"Why did I ever take in a little unicorn? You can't fly with me or anything, you're just useless without any wings!"

That's why…What I…What Discord made me say…

"Ditzy, I'm still sorry for what I put you through," Fluttershy said, snapping me out of my thoughts. "Even if good came out of it, forcing my vision of the world on everypony was wrong. I know I asked you but it still wasn't right…I'm sorry I let Sparkler just sit there begging you and Dinky to come out…I think a part of me was angry that you didn't want to come out…That's why I'm telling you this…I just want to make it up to anypony I hurt with what I did."

I thought hard about what she said. How my little muffin must still feel. Even if her nightmares had stopped, when her paradise was like that, there was still something I really needed to do…

"Banks, Fluttershy…I think blue did kelp be…"


"Mama, I think I ate too much ice-cream," said Dinky as I tucked her into bed that night, having carried her home from the festival on my back.

I get her a little of that medicine for an upset stomach and once she felt a little better, I set down on her bed beside her. I still sleep with her, just to make sure she's okay. We sleep so much better knowing we're right beside each other. "Dinky…Do you seal wish you were a pegasus?"

She looks at me a little nervous. She tries to hide it, but mothers can tell. "Well I…"

"Dinky, don't fly to momma, bell momma the truth," I say simply, making it as clear as possible.

Dinky nodded lightly, looking up at me. "…Yeah…I guess I do, momma…"

"Why? Is it because I bold you I didn't love you because blue weren't sun?" I ask, slowly rubbing her little head with my hoof as soothingly as I can. "Sell the truth."

Dinky shook her head. "No…It's not that anymore…" she said, looking up at me, I can tell in her little eyes she's lying so she doesn't hurt me.

"Well I do love you, you're my little muffin and you always will be," I say, giving her a little nuzzle and hugging her. "But if blitz not that, then why do you want to be a pegasus?" I ask, now even more confused than before.

"…Because I can't fly with you, momma…" Dinky said, her little eyes tearing up as she looked up at me. "You always have to stay on the ground when I'm with you…Some mean pegasus at school told me I was hurting you by keeping you on the ground…I don't like to hurt you…" she said, beginning to cry.

I give a small gasp…I told Cheerilee about that later. I knew what I'd said while "Discorded" didn't help matters any. "No, blur hot hurting me, Dinky, I promise," I said, hugging her close and letting her cry into my mane. "And you pan fly with me if you taunt to."

My little muffin looks up at me, tears still clinging to her eyes. "How momma?"

"I'll toe you in the morning," I say and kiss her on the forehead lightly. "I love blue just the say you are, my Muffin."

"I love you too, momma," she said, before wrapping her hooves around my neck. "Just the way you are…Momma…can I ask you something else?"

"Yes, Dinky?"

"…Can you tell me about my papa?"

What did I tell her? I'm sorry, that doesn't feel right to tell you…Just know there were no secrets, no lies. I wanted her to know the truth. I didn't want my muffin in the dark any more.

"Goodnight, Dinky…" I said, laying down beside her after all was said and done, after all the tears were shed.

"Night, momma…Tomorrow we'll go flying, promise?"

"I promise…"


"Faster momma! Faster!"

"Alright, pang on, muffin!"

I'm not the best flyer. I'm not the most coordinated. But it's strange, when I flew with my little muffin in one of those foal carrying harnesses I borrowed from the Cakes, I felt like I didn't have one little bit of trouble flying at all…

I think I learned something from all this…Something that I'm glad to know. When you're in a world where the thing, or pony, you love the most can be taken away at any moment…You fight to keep them by your side no matter what. You love them, you cherish them, and you keep them safe with everything you have. But most importantly, you make sure they're happy and know you love them…

I'm free.

Huh? What's that? You want to know about the trip to Canterlot? Well I guess I could tell you…
Discord's beaten, but invisible scars take the longest to heal for the mane six and all of Ponyville. Anyone can die, living is the actually challenge. This is a mother's tale of recovering from Discord's taint.


Well, an Optional Canon chapter, meaning this is up to you rather or not its actually part of the story line, but Alexwarlorn let me right a REAL chapter for the Pony POV Series! I'm a promoted Fanboy!

This also counts as a sequel to my original recursive canon So I guess that's Optional Canon now too KIND OF. Alexwarlorn told me it was ok to write it that way none the less. So this is also her Healing Ponies chapter, the Butterflies subtitle is just because its in that section of the story.

Alexwarlorn also wrote a few scenes, mainly the scenes involving Princess Gaia and her festival and did editting.

pumpkin-tlof19 also beta read once, if my memory is correct.

Part 2 is going to be her visit to Canterlot.

MLP: FiM: Copyright Hasbro

Pony POV Series belongs to Alexwarlorn! I'm just the guest writer!

EDIT: Made a lot of edits thanks to :iconalexwarlorn: ! Also had the Doctor refer to Ditzy as Derpy since it was mentioned he considered it

EDIT: Cover Art thanks to BigMackintosh !
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Redmarhuisman Featured By Owner Apr 14, 2015
This just shows how great of a mother Derpy is. I have never read a story where Derpy isn't a good mom.
Kendell2 Featured By Owner Apr 14, 2015  Hobbyist
Thanks! that's what I was going for with this!
gamexpert1990 Featured By Owner Jun 12, 2014
For starters, unlike the previous chapter where you wrote Derpy's "Discording," I have absolutely no problem putting this chapter into my favorites!!!

I think I'll go ahead and say this here (I will probably also say pretty much the same thing when I get around to re-reading, and commenting on, the particular chapters from the main "Pony POV" canon):

During my first read through of the "Pony POV" Series, when the fog and Princess Gaia's "troops(/thralls? I can't remember what they were actually called)" were at Ditzy/Derpy's house and trying to convince her to enter the fog, I could see Derpy make either decision and the story would have been awesome. But when it was revealed to us that Derpy received the medal for her determination, I pumped my fist onto the air and said "**** YES!" No, I am not joking or exaggerating, I actually did that (I'm just glad I was the only one home at the time)... [Side note: Before that scene, I've never really latched onto the background characters like most of the fandom. Since that scene, however...]

I guess now all I have to say is thank you very much for bringing Derpy's perspective into more detail, and this chapter made me a little teary-eyed...
Kendell2 Featured By Owner Jun 13, 2014  Hobbyist
Yeah, that is an epic moment, isn't it?

And you're welcome, I'm glad the chapter was enjoyable and got an emotional reaction :)
gamexpert1990 Featured By Owner Jun 13, 2014
Yes. Yes it is... One of the many, if you don't mind me saying.

I have to say, aside from what I have already mentioned, I think the most emotional part in this chapter is the flashback scene where the Doctor and Carrot Top are giving it their all to vouch for Derpy's worth as a mother.
Kendell2 Featured By Owner Jun 13, 2014  Hobbyist
I'm glad that one worked :)
alexwarlorn Featured By Owner Sep 11, 2013
Now feathered on recursive fanworks theater.…
Kendell2 Featured By Owner Sep 11, 2013  Hobbyist
alexwarlorn Featured By Owner Jan 25, 2013
The irony is in the alternate version it WAS Derpy who threw the rock. I guess uncertainty however is GOOD for an aspect of the story like that. Rather than all being certain.

Though what IS canon (via civic duty ) is that the rock thrower confessed to Mayor Mare, who ISN'T talking.
Kendell2 Featured By Owner Jan 25, 2013  Hobbyist
Given all the time travel both Derpy's do being the Doctor's Companion, it's possible BOTH versions are true.
alexwarlorn Featured By Owner Dec 3, 2012
STILL PART OF THE PONY POV SERIES AND STILL LOVED! (even if there are TWO VERSIONS of Derpy's story and they are BOTH equally optional canon!)
Kendell2 Featured By Owner Dec 3, 2012  Hobbyist

Once more, sorry it's taking so long. Life is getting in my way!
alexwarlorn Featured By Owner Dec 15, 2012
You're forgiven.

Derpy, "BUt finals are over now right?"
Kendell2 Featured By Owner Dec 15, 2012  Hobbyist
Yeah, now they are. Hope to get work done over the break.
alexwarlorn Featured By Owner Dec 15, 2012
Derpy, "Yay!"
alexwarlorn Featured By Owner Oct 22, 2012
Have you posted it on
Kendell2 Featured By Owner Oct 22, 2012  Hobbyist
Hmm...I suppose I could, if you want me to.
alexwarlorn Featured By Owner Oct 22, 2012
Might be a good idea.
Kendell2 Featured By Owner Oct 22, 2012  Hobbyist
I'll get to that when I can.
alexwarlorn Featured By Owner Oct 22, 2012
Thank you very much.
alexwarlorn Featured By Owner Oct 15, 2012
Shall we ever see part 2?
Kendell2 Featured By Owner Oct 15, 2012  Hobbyist
*Sigh* I hope.
alexwarlorn Featured By Owner Oct 15, 2012
alexwarlorn Featured By Owner Aug 30, 2012
Crowd outside build chanting, "We want part 2! We want part 2" Now you know how many video franchises have felt.
Kendell2 Featured By Owner Aug 31, 2012  Hobbyist
*Sigh* I know, I know.
alexwarlorn Featured By Owner Aug 31, 2012
ardashir Featured By Owner Jun 27, 2012
D'aww! This is one of the sweetest things I've ever read. You did such a great job of getting across both Derpy's minor difficulties and making her the loveable character she is. And I love the scenes with her and Dinky. You made me want to give them both a hug.
Kendell2 Featured By Owner Jun 27, 2012  Hobbyist
Thanks! Glad it all worked out and was touching!

Was it as touching as the Discorded chapter I did was sad?

Thanks for the fav!
ardashir Featured By Owner Jun 27, 2012
Was it as touching as the Discorded chapter I did was sad?

Yes, very much so!
Kendell2 Featured By Owner Jun 27, 2012  Hobbyist

Any parts in particular that stand out?
ardashir Featured By Owner Jun 27, 2012
I'd say just about all the parts where we see Derpy together with Dinky. She's such a loving mother. But the part where she was brought to Canterlot and rewarded for being such a loving mom is great.
Kendell2 Featured By Owner Jun 27, 2012  Hobbyist

Was her fainting in reaction to being told that funny?
ardashir Featured By Owner Jun 27, 2012
I'd say so. Poor Derpy was so shocked!
Kendell2 Featured By Owner Jun 27, 2012  Hobbyist
Yeah. Much better than the last message a deity gave her.

I just now realized the irony of that.
alexwarlorn Featured By Owner May 18, 2012
I would like permission to add this to a special gallery for recursive fanfics that have gotten my stamp of approval.
Kendell2 Featured By Owner May 18, 2012  Hobbyist
You've got it, no problem.
alexwarlorn Featured By Owner Apr 24, 2012
more to you than anything in the entire world?
more to you than anypony in the entire world?

I could find TOO hate her for…
I could find TO hate her for…

Sparkler? She, er, couldn't give a lot of recent input. ~But she said what she could.~

Sparkler? She, er, couldn't give a lot of recent input. But she said what she could.

Dinky and she's better off
Dinky and that she's better off

I'd have an author's note SOMEWHERE noting the headache she's given them editing her speech.

It was like she was the oven spray that cleaned the gunk off the used muffin tray and showed the clean shinny surface underneath.


with the fog inside,
with the fog inside me,

I loved Dinky to manipulate me,
I loved Dinky to use me,

muffins and positioned myself near the path from her house to Ponyville.
muffins and sat myself near the path from her house to Ponyville.

"Um…R-rest, by game is Ditzy Doo,"

"Um…R-rest, by game quiz Ditzy Doo,"

thy daughter, Dinky,"
thy youngest daughter, Dinky,"

"Blur not baking her away, are you?!"
"Blur knot baking Muffin away, are two?!"

'Dear Ditizy Doo;

You are hereby invited to Canterlot for a celebration in your honor, in which you shall be publicly recognized for your dedication and strength of heart. We look forwards to seeing you there.

Her Nightjesty of Dreams and Nightmares Princess Luna Nyx Selena Equestria.

Would there have been a date and time? And if her family is going with her, I think it would meantion her family being guests with her. Since Ditzy CAN be literal minded due to her language center.

I have absolutely no idea what to do."
I have absolutely no idea what to do with."

For some strange reason, I have an image of a pony hitting the doctor in the face in the cream pie, and then Zoberg style going 'Wowowowo! Woowoowoo!" And running around in a walk pattern with their hooves up the whole time.

"Mellow Carrot Top,"

"Marshmallow Carrot Top,"

dye out of our hair."
dye out of our manes."

"Um, Miss Rarity?"

"Um, Swiss Rarity?"

something as great as their status as a mother!

Something about that feels STRANGELY SeriousBusiness Trope. Yes it's a big deal to Ditzy after what she's endured. But Rarity's opinion on mothers might be as great given her attitude towards her own parents.

I mean with your head, not your eyes."

THAT must have been weird.

her 'Princess' and kicked the stallion in the mouth,
her 'Princess' and rear-kicked the stallion in the mouth,

The two trotted with Zecora giving a careful glance behind her.
The two trotted on with Zecora giving a careful glance behind her.

some ponies would never forgive her for what she did,
some ponies still hated her,

She turned and looked back at me.

You said she flew in FRONT of them so not to appear a danger.

Fluttershy said, looking me in the eyes.
Fluttershy said, looking me in the eye.

Fluttershy gave me a nod. "And my spell didn't give them

Fluttershy gave me a nod. "My spell didn't give them

"Why did I ever take in a little unicorn? You can't fly with me or anything, you're just useless without any wings!"

Except that line didn't appear in the previous chapter. This should be fixed.

"Ditzy, I know you forgive me, but I'm still sorry for what I put you through,"

When did Ditzy give her apology?

did help be…"
did kelp be…"

sure she's ok.
sure she's okay.

she said, looking up at me, I can tell in her little eyes she's lying so it doesn't make me feel bad.

Might want to change the word order there a little.

Some mean pegasus at school told me I was hurting you by keeping you on the ground

I wonder who that was.

Maybe Alula trying to emulate Diamond Tiara and saw how bad it was?

"If this feels bad, why does Diamond keep doing it? Does she not like herself then?"

I give a small gasp…I'd let Cheerilee know about that later.

Technically she was already home schooled by this point.

I wonder if gossamer wings would relieve the symptoms while aggravating the disease.

"I love blue just the say you are, Dinky."

"I love blue just the say you are, My Muffin."

Something that I'm glad I knew.
Something that I'm glad to know.
Kendell2 Featured By Owner Jan 25, 2013  Hobbyist
Finally edited it in. Thanks!
ItsfromPeople Featured By Owner Apr 8, 2012
We start with a very weird naming debate I honestly never understood. People really consider Derpy Hooves/Ditzy Doo offensive? In a series that where Slumber 101: All You've Ever Wanted to Know About Slumber Parties (But Were Afraid to Ask), references a certain guide, we have a joke about a spiked punch, a reference of steroid use and tail extensions. I guess those just were too stealthy.

Still it is nice to see another character actually being helped by a psychiatrist. The line about not giving into Discords hate is also really good.

We get a quick summarisation how Discord turned love into hate and let it spread until the mother hated her child no matter what it looked like. She even enjoyed it.

On the other hand some psychiatrists tried to take her children away a very real and mundane threat. And it might have happened if her friends hadn’t stood up for her, even if they still struggled with their own problems. Both the Doctor and Carrot Top believe in her and that she is a great mother that would do everything for her little muffin. In fact judging from the Doctors reaction he could be a member of her family…

The bits about Berry Punch wanting to vouch for her but couldn’t and Twilight maybe vouching for her were also nice reminders that Derpy Hooves/Ditzy Doo has more than just two friends.

The nightmares she and Dinky have are also disturbingly familiar. Sparklers suffering under Discord is also a reminder about the fact that Discord just loves his half-truths. He doesn’t turn ponies to stone, but into gold, silver or amethyst.

Then she gets a visit from Applejack who just saw the Truth and gives her a toughing message: "You two are the picture of a mama and her young 'un. Ah've never seen a ma and her filly as closely bonded as you two! And Ah can tell ya right now that ain't an exaggeration on ma part! You two are wonderful for each other! And Ah KNOW what you two share is stronger than anything Discord could have done to ya.” The quote is right out of Applejacks Healing Chapter and still heart-warming.

The Princess Gaia incident from her perspective is definitely disturbing. The brainwashed child believes that she has wings and a father and walks around like a wind-up toy. While her fight scene is a bit short, it still makes clear that it is a war of attrition. Then Princess Gaia changes tactics and tries to use her brainwashed friends to convince Derpy Hooves/Ditzy Doo to give up. When that still doesn’t work, the Princess offers her knighthood and power while her other child waits outside for her. Again someone is trying to use her love against her. The fact that the mind controlled Sparkler is still loyal to Derpy Hooves/Ditzy Doo shows nicely how different from Discord Fluttershy even as a Nightmare is. There are certain lines she will not cross.

Her line about the fog “It wouldn't let you see danger, it wouldn't let you see beauty.” Is also really good.

Forgiveness doesn’t come easy (stone filled muffins) but ironically thanks to Discord Derpy Hooves/Ditzy Doo is able to forgive Fluttershy for her actions. It also helped that her fog did have some secondary benefits.

Then she gets a visit of PRINCESS LUNA and she can hardly formulate a normal sentence before the Princess of the Night. But she hasn’t come to take her children away; she is there to give her a medal and a invitation for resisting the temptation of Princess Gaia. Derpy Hooves/Ditzy Doo reacts naturally and faints. And finally since Discord she has her first night with good dreams.

Afterwards she has a nice conversation with the Doctor, who has rediscovered his sense of adventure but is struck with an enormous mass of ice cream. The talk with Carrot Top is similar and it is good to see that both basically just look at the award and tell her: We knew that you are a great mother.

Meanwhile Rarity is very busy but immediately starts to help her when she mentions the magic word: Canterlot. The “look straight ahead“ line was hilarious.

At the celebration Derpy Hooves/Ditzy Doo realizes what it would be like if she went through with her plan of stone filled muffins, when Fluttershy is attacked with a rock. While Fluttershy accepts this as part of her punishment Derpy Hooves/Ditzy Doo is nearly crushed by the feelings of guilt. Zecora on the other hand is fiercely protective of her Princess, rightfully so judging from the assassin.

The moment where Fluttershy reveals what she saw in Dinkys dream is also really heart-warming, she didn’t want her mother to change AT ALL, she just wanted to spend time with her. "…You were her dream…" Thanks to this Derpy Hooves/Ditzy Doo is able to completely forgive her.

Then we learn of Dinkys fears of dragging her mother down and hurting her by making her walk on the ground. In the end she flies together with her child thanks to a harness. Dinky even learns the story about her father, while we don’t get the details.

I found a minor error: “Berry would have said what she could but…the doctors hadn't declared her fit to testify yet.” It should be “declared her unfit to testify yet.”

Overall this is a heart-warming and cute story. The differences between the way she thinks and the way she talks is handled very good and non-offensive. Keep up the good work.
Kendell2 Featured By Owner Apr 7, 2013  Hobbyist
"Her line about the fog “It wouldn't let you see danger, it wouldn't let you see beauty.” Is also really good."

I believe that was from Alex.

Glad it all turned out.

For the record, I really do love your reviews!
alexwarlorn Featured By Owner Apr 17, 2012
Your reviews, are as wonderful to read as the stories themselves! Sometimes eve more so!
ItsfromPeople Featured By Owner Apr 18, 2012
Thank you.

But I just try to get to the bottom of things.
alexwarlorn Featured By Owner Apr 19, 2012
Seriously, your stuff is great, for you, more is decidedly better. I love every word I read from you. The longer your reviews are the better. I LOVE THEM. :-)
pumpkin-tlof19 Featured By Owner Feb 27, 2012
Nope on the beta, this caught me completely by surprise. It's amazingly touching, and I can easily understand the characters and their motivations. ...Doctor Whooves is still favorite, because Doctor Whooves, you can't beat that! That said, Derpy gives him a hell of a competition. She's a mare who's fiercely devoted to her family and friends, and she sees the world in a completely different light, to the point where others don't understand her...I can understand that.
Kendell2 Featured By Owner Feb 27, 2012  Hobbyist
Huh, I could've sworn...Would you mind doing a Beta Read for it?

Thanks! I'm glad all the characters were understandable.

Yeah, hard to beat being The Doctor.

Yeah, Pony POV!Derpy is pretty cool. Real Derpy is cool to, but Alex did a lot with the character and all I did was make a story with her in it.

Did the scenes with Derpy interacting with The Doctor and Carrot Top indicate they're True Companions to?
Sentreriaaa Featured By Owner Feb 26, 2012
Where do you imagine this chapter should be put within the rest of the series (in reading order, not chronologically)? After the rest of the Butterflies stories and before Cruel's Best Pet?

I find it interesting that Ditzy didn't outright deny adoption of Dinky and Sparkler. We've seen working genetics on screen, so she still can be their biological mother, but I have a feeling that her travels with Doctor play a part in this mystery.

Doctor and Carrot Top defending Ditzy's right to be a mother against psychologists was the best moment of this chapter. You've shown the value of friendship in best traditions of TV series and the result was very heartwarming.

A nightmares of Discord's bad future with birds attacking Dinky helped Ditzy to defend her daughter during Princess Gaia incident. It's an interesting idea, I've never made this connection myself.

"Princess Woona"

I know it's a part of established fanon, but I think you've overdone Ditzy's obsession with muffins a bit.

I suppose, Dinky and Sparkler are also going to visit their mother's celebration in Canterlot. Why wouldn't they? But what about their dresses?

Dinky wanting to become a pegasus like her mother... If you think about it, in alternate reality from AJ's Dream, Princess Gaia granted her wish and gave her butterfly wings. 'Flying together' was a great moment to end the chapter.
Kendell2 Featured By Owner Feb 26, 2012  Hobbyist
The final part takes place after the Gaia Festival, so anywhere after that works, but it'd probably be at the end of butterflies.

That's your choice, me and Alex intentionally left it vague so the audience can decide.

Glad you liked that! My intention was to make it clear that the mane cast aren't the only "True Companions" in Equestria and other friends really helpped each other too.

Alexwarlorn's idea, I like it too though.

lol, I'm glad someone caught that!

How so?

Yeah, they'll be going, I'll think of something with that.

Good point, and I'm glad that was a good end of the chapter!
Sentreriaaa Featured By Owner Feb 26, 2012
"How so?"
Please ignore the muffin comment. It was written based on a note I've made while reading the chapter at 5 am. I've reread it now and there's nothing wrong with muffins.
Kendell2 Featured By Owner Feb 26, 2012  Hobbyist
Ah, alright, understood.

Anything else you find interesting?
Sentreriaaa Featured By Owner Feb 28, 2012
There were many interesting moments... Highlights include:
- The reveal of what happened to Sparkler during the day of Discord and Ditzy's reaction
- Doctor's thoughts on how he had better control over TARDIS as a colt and that he was turned into a colt version of his current self, not his previous reincarnation
- Rarity's reaction when she saw the invitation
- Ditzy going to the festival for the sake of her kids despite her dislike of Princess Gaia's actions
- Knife incident. Would there be any consequences to it? Also, if a pony wants to conceal his identity, hiding a cutie mark should be as important as wearing a mask.
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