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Discorded Celestia

Not Loved

Loose Canon

WARNING! Spoilers for Origins!


I am Princess Celestia Amaterasu Solaris Equestria, but please, simply call me Celestia. I have lived for a very, very long time…so long I can remember this world, this iteration, when it was young. You think it is pleasant to be immortal? It is far from it, but it is a cross I and my sister bear. I have made mistakes: not realizing my sister was succumbing to darkness until it was too late was one that I shall never stop regretting, even now that she is with me once again, and that is only one. Only My Parents are perfect after all…But one thing I do not regret is taking on my faithful student, Twilight Sparkle. She is one of the few beings in this world besides my sister and niece who I can be certain truly care about me. Did I know she was an Element Of Harmony before I accepted her? I may have had a hunch, but I didn't take a personal student simply to find the Element of Magic. After 1000 years with Philomena as my only company true company, and being forced to send my niece abroad for her own protection, I wished to have something none of the nobles or even many of my subjects will allow themselves to be, a true friend. And Twilight has proven to be just that for me, for that, I am eternally grateful.

Discord… There's a name that, if I had not heard it again until the end of this universe, it would be too soon. He… He stole them… He stole the Elements of Harmony right from under my muzzle and I could do nothing to stop him. And now he's taunting us, I and Twilight and her friends. I shut him up quickly, I cannot allow him to get in my head. Twilight solved his riddle quickly, I knight her and her friends, and they're off to the labyrinth. I shall hurry to help as soon as I awaken Luna, maybe both of us together can do something to stall Discord while they find the Elements…

I rush towards Luna's chamber… What? Why isn't the door opening?

"Now now Celestia, let the poor dear sleep, it isn't nearly nighttime yet."

I feel his grubby claws on my head, pulling my eyes to face his. To look at this hideous abomination responsible for untold suffering and the extinction of two of the Pony Races… I tear my head from his grasp and snort, hot air rushing from my nostrils. I flare my wings in a threatening display. "Out of my way, Discord!"

"My my, Celestia, you sure are temperamental," said Discord, snaking around me like the serpent he is. "Well, look at how you've grown. And you've got such pretty hair now, it suits you… But I think pink is still more your color," he said, snapping his fingers.

I look down, in a flash my fur is vibrant pink. I give him a glare, rage burning inside of me. Discord has always known just how to get under my skin! He just laughs his head off. "Enough games, Discord! What are you doing here?!"

Discord gave a growl of annoyance, snapping his fingers and turning my fur back. "Since when did you get so serious, Celestia? We used to have such fun toge-"

"Back then, Galaxia was still alive," I snarl, never taking my eyes off him. I narrow my eyes. I will never forgive him for what he did…I pray you never find out how that felt. "And so were Mimic, the Sea Ponies, and the Flutterponies."

"Oh, you're still sore about that?" asked Discord with a chuckle. How dare he speak light of such a horrible thing! "That was three thousand ago, Celestia, some ponies just can't let go of a grudge."

"Murderer."

"Murderer? It's not my fault I'm a little rough on my toys." replied the Lord of Chaos with a callousness that makes my blood run cold. I never thought Discord had a heart, but this… Considering multiple genocides child's play? Making me watch my family be brutally murdered?

"DISCORD APOPHIS TYPHON, STOP THESE GAMES AND TELL ME WHAT YOU'RE DOING HERE!" I bellow, using the traditional Canterlot voice, something I have not used in a very long time. I detest using it, it makes those below me afraid. But Discord is one who I wish feared me.

Discord blinked in surprise, then gave an annoyed growl. "Fine, talk about a party pooper, I guess I will let you in on the fun," he states, then gave a smirk. "We're just playing a little game is all, my kind of game."

I give him a strange look… Then it hits me… I'm such a fool! "No… It's a trap!"

"I wouldn't call it a trap, more of a game they have absolutely no chance of winning and will likely be completely broken playing," replies Discord with a sick smirk that makes me sick to my stomach. "Oh, I've even come up with the loveliest nicknames for them! Liarjack, Angry Pie, Fluttercruel, Rarigreed, Traitor Dash, and Twilight Tragedy. What do you think? I was also considering Greedity, but Rarigreed rolls off the tongue a lot better."

I backpedal in shock. How could this have happened? How could I forget what kind of a monster Discord is? How could I… How could I let them walk into his clutches like this?… No, I am the one everypony looks to for strength and guidance, I cannot lose hope, not now. If I give up, everypony will… I must be strong. I must be strong for them.

"They will beat you…" I say, as defiantly as I can manage. It is not an easy thing to do, given the circumstances. "They are strong willed. You shall not win, Discord!"

Discord gave a laugh as if that was the funniest thing he'd ever heard. That laugh makes me sick. Every time I have ever heard it, it was during an act of unbelievable cruelty. Even before he began his reign of terror and chaos, he only laughed like that when making somepony miserable. The Draconequi were not exactly pleasant creatures by any stretch, but they had their place in harmony. Discord did not earn his title the Spirit Of Disharmony until after he had revealed what a monstrosity he really was. He was the Spirit Of Chaos. Believe it or not, even chaos had a role in the grand scheme of things. That's why one as chaotic as Pinkamenia Diana Pie is an Element Of Harmony. Order and Harmony are not one and the same. But Discord no longer has a place in harmony, not now, not ever again!  

"Really? Now Celestia, your Auntie Galaxia couldn't stop me, you and your sister got lucky, we both know if things had been just a little different, you'd have been joining Galaxia. What makes you think six mortal ponies could do any better?"

"Because those ponies have something you CAN'T understand," I retort, standing as tall as I can. I have one thing that I can hang onto, one light that I cannot allow to extinguish. "Friendship."

Discord gave a gag, of course he would. How could one not be sickened by the thing that is their very antithesis? "Don't start preaching to me, Celestia, I heard enough of that garbage back when I conquered Equestria…but if you're so confident, we'll play a little game too," he said, snaking around to look me in the eye with a smirk. "Six little ponies wandering about, I'll win this game without a doubt. But if all of them fall into my grasp, you and Luna will face my wrath," he recited, then chuckled. "Good luck, Celly!" he said with a laugh and teleported away.

As soon as Discord leaves, I try all the doors… Locked, I should have expected that. I aim my horn at the window and let loose a bolt of solar fire, shattering it to pieces. Spreading my wings, I fly straight through it… And find myself exactly where I started. Of course… Discord will not let me leave until his game is complete…
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I wait, and do the only thing I can; hope. I do not know what he'll do to me and Luna if Twilight and her friends fail… For the first time in 1000 years, I'm afraid… Not for myself, but for my student and her friends… For my sister…Thank Mother and Father that Cadence is abroad, but that will only protect her for so long…I can only hope Twilight and her friends can beat him… I feel helpless…

Finally he reappears before me in a flash of light, he looks rather annoyed.

Discord gives growl. "Fine! I guess I underestimated them just a little bit…" he growled, glaring at me. I cannot say it doesn't feel good to see him this upset. "Twilight decided not to play along… Yet… I expected her to finally give up when I sent little Traitor Dash heading off to Cloudsdale, but she didn't and the game is over. And I suppose I had to cheat on little miss 'oh I am weak and helpless', too kind for her own good… Oh well, there goes my plans to turn you and Luna into wonderful gold and silver statues for my garden."

I give a small sigh of relief… Then it hits me and my blood runs cold. "… You got to them, didn't you?"

Discord gave a laugh. "Yes, and it was the most fun I've had in eons! Honesty is lying like a dog, laughter is mad at the world, kindness is cruel as can be, generosity is carrying around this huge boulder (made her think it's a diamond she's now obsessed)… with, and last but not least, loyalty betrayed her friends to save her home," he explained, giving a laugh. "Which reminds me, I have to be quick here, I need to be in Cloudsdale soon to give her a little surprise, mustn't keep her waiting."

My heart sinks. Applejack, Pinkie Pie, Fluttershy, Rarity, and Rainbow Dash… It's all my fault, I should have warned them about what Discord was capable of. "No…" I quickly rise my head and snarl. "I'M GOING TO KILL YOU!"

Discord gave a laugh. "Kill me? Seriously, Celestia? Did you forget that without your precious Elements you're nothing compared to me? And even if you did kill me, well, we all remember how that turned out when your Auntie tried it, don't we?" he asked, shape shifting into the form of…of…of the rightful owner of that body he made into a copy of his own before turning back with a laugh as I intensify my glare. "Besides, they never cared about you anyway, why care about them?"

I give a snarl, I can't listen. I cannot allow him to get in my head! "My subjects are loyal to me, Discord, I love them like my children. You are not going to turn me against them, not now, not ever."

"Yes, you do treat them like children, how sweet… and boring! But I guess that just makes it that much more sad they don't really love you," said Discord, giving a fake frown.

"My subjects love me, Discord, and I love them."

"Oh really?" asked Discord. "That's not what I see. If they love you, why do cower before you whenever you go by?"

"They bow out of respect."

"Then why is everypony afraid of what you'll do to them if they mess up? Why do they think one little slip up and off to the moon they go?"

I try not to let that bother me, or at the very least, let Discord know it does. I'll admit it, I have seen my subjects react that way, and it hurts… But I can't let him know that.

"It's because you're the goddess, the alicorn, you're in charge and they know it. You tower over them like a giant. They'll never accept you, Celestia. They didn't accept Luna 1000 years ago and they still don't. As far as they're concerned, you're something powerful and alien, and they fear you for it. They fear someone more powerful than they are, and you're more powerful than them in every way."

"Enough… That's enough Discord! My subjects do not fear me!"

Discord chuckled, slithering around me and putting his eagle claw over my shoulder. I try to shake it off, but he doesn't budge. "Oh Celestia, so naïve; even after all this time, you still think those mortal ponies can accept a goddess like you as one of their own," he stated, like an adult talking to a child. "Let me enlighten you a little bit."

I hear his fingers snap… Then I heard it… Them… Hundreds of thousands of voices…

"Princess Celestia is coming to town, we have to have everything in order or we're in big trouble!"

"If everything isn't perfect, who knows what she'll do!"

"She'll throw me in the dungeon if she finds out!"

"Here comes Princess Celestia! We'd better bow or she'll send us to the moon just like she did her sister!"

"Princess Celestia will probably banish me to the Everfree Forest! MY LIFE IS RUINED!!"


And thousands more, all screaming in my head, thousands of voices yelling the same fears… All of them afraid of me… They… They do fear me… All of them… They all fear me…

"No… You… You're playing mind games, Discord, I won't listen!" I can't listen, can't let him get in my head! He must be lying! He has to be!

"And you know what's saddest of all? Twilight Sparkle, your dearest little pupil who you love like a daughter? She's the one who fears you the most."

Then I hear it… The most painful words I've ever heard since His Mother showed me my mistake over three thousand years ago.

"Everything has to be perfect! Celestia won't want to be my teacher anymore if I mess up!"

"Oh no! If she finds out I messed up like this, she'll throw me in the dungeon!"

"If she sees Ponyville eaten by Parasprites and finds out it's my fault, she'll take me away from Ponyville and send me back to magic kindergarten!"

"I ruined the Winter Wrap-Up, when Celestia finds out, she'll send me to the moon!"

"She might banish you from Equestria! Or throw you in a dungeon! Or banish you and then throw you in a dungeon in the place that she banishes you to!"

"I got Discord's riddle wrong… It's all my fault… If we ever get out of this mess, Princess Celestia will never want to see me again, she'll banish me from Equestria… Maybe she'll even turn me to stone like she did Discord…"


"No… Twilight…" I feel tears running down my face as I sink to my knees… He's right… Even… Even Twilight is afraid of me… The pony I love like a daughter is afraid of me… Terrified of me… They're all… They're all terrified of me…

Discord puts his snout close to my ear, I no longer resist... "Oh don't act so surprised, you've known it from the get go, I'm just making you face the truth. It's all because you're the big alicorn who towers over them. Who has the power over all of Equestria and controls the sun and moon. It's because you're the big important leader that they're afraid of you. And who wants all that dull responsibility anyway? Wouldn't you rather just be able to play with them whenever you feel like? Like when you were a little filly and could play with Luna whenever you felt like… If you were smaller than her and didn't rule Equestria, Twilight wouldn't have a reason to be afraid and you could spend some quality time with her, couldn't you? You could play all day with your little subjects and never have to do anything to be pulled away from them."

He puts his hand on my head, I feel myself shrinking, my sense of responsibility waning. Shouldn't I care?… Maybe he's right… Maybe it is easier if I just let it go… If I just relinquish my responsibility, my power. What has it ever done but cause me pain? It kept me too busy to see my sister falling to darkness. I've never been able to spend time with my nephew Blueblood… He's only how he is because I let him become like this… Twilight is terrified of me because of my power… I'm tired of everypony being afraid of me all the time…

"Who wants to be the responsible one? Who wants to be in charge if pain is all it brings you? Sometimes it's easier to just be a little filly without a care in the world. I'll even give you a tiny bit of my power to play around with…after all, it's the least I can do for playing along so nicely in my little game."

When you have power, everypony fears you. When you're big, they feel small and that's not right! And who wants to be a stuffy old fuddy-duddy who doesn't have time to play? Who wants to be too busy to play and spend time with their friends! That's just so boring! I never want to grow up! I'll just play all day long and nopony will have to be scared of me ever again! Yeah, that's what I'll do! And it's all thanks to my best friend in the whole world; Discord!
More recursive fanfiction for [link] Pony POV Series. In the Canterlot Chaos Side Story, we're shown that Discord got to Celestia, that's where this came from.

Discord is out and about, having his way with everypony. It was only a matter of time until he got to the one who defeated him...

I actually like this and think it turned out great. Probably one of the saddest things I've ever written...

My Little Pony belongs to Hasbro

Pony POV Series belong to Alexwarlorn.

EDIT: Thanks to [link] for Beta Reading!

EDIT: MAJOR revisions based on my beta reader and Alexwarlorn's suggestions!

EDIT: BIG Edit updating to catch up with the real Pony POV Series.

EDIT: This is Loose Canon and was declared so awhile ago actually, only problem was I forgot...

EDIT: Added a Preview pic. Thanks to :iconmr-tiaa: !
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alexwarlorn Featured By Owner Sep 2, 2013
alexwarlorn.deviantart.com/art… Now featured on the recursive fanfic theater.
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Kendell2 Featured By Owner Sep 2, 2013
Glad someone decided to do it, I'm flattered :)
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ardashir Featured By Owner Jul 10, 2013
That new preview art is great.
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Kendell2 Featured By Owner Jul 10, 2013
Glad I picked a good one!
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alexwarlorn Featured By Owner Jul 10, 2013
In a way, I imagine Discord finally had Celestia the way he had wanted her since forever, seeing things from his sick point of view.
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Kendell2 Featured By Owner Jul 10, 2013
Celestia may have that thought cross her mind.
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alexwarlorn Featured By Owner Jul 5, 2013
With everything revealed since then, this puts Celestia and Discord's chat, and the way he twists her, all into a new light.
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Kendell2 Featured By Owner Jul 9, 2013
I still consider this one of the saddest stories I've ever written.
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Kendell2 Featured By Owner Jul 5, 2013
Yeah, agreed.
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alexwarlorn Featured By Owner Jul 10, 2013
Makes you wonder if somewhere he was almost feeling nostalgic.
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Kendell2 Featured By Owner Jul 10, 2013
Yeah, agreed.
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subjectz Featured By Owner Oct 1, 2012
I wish somepony would draw her in her discorded state!
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Kendell2 Featured By Owner Oct 2, 2012
Yeah, I agree.
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alexwarlorn Featured By Owner May 19, 2012
What edits would this need for the pony POV Series?
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Kendell2 Featured By Owner May 19, 2012
You mean to fit into the Pony POV Series proper?
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alexwarlorn Featured By Owner May 19, 2012
Yeah.
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Kendell2 Featured By Owner May 19, 2012
Updated it with what I think needed added, but I might have missed something. But I THINK it's good now, but you're Word Of God, so you have final say on that. I might have missed something.
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alexwarlorn Featured By Owner Apr 22, 2012
And. This is made all the more twisted since Celestia at that age WAS Discord's best friend!
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Kendell2 Featured By Owner Apr 22, 2012
Yep.

Also, since it wasn't revealed at the time, I'm retconing Celestia calling Discord a murderer to be because, unlike her, he enjoys that he was the cause of the destructions of his race and Celestia's (and murdered Destruction) and takes credit, so she has every right to be ticked about that. At least in my head...
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alexwarlorn Featured By Owner Apr 22, 2012
Makes me wonder how things were for her . . . when she woke up from the twisted fantasy world Discord gave her.

There's also something ELSE to consider . . . unlike all of Discord's other victims, Celly was . . . happy n her tainted state.
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Kendell2 Featured By Owner Apr 23, 2012
I think the torture there was going to be turning her back to normal and letting her remember what she did while Discorded, how she used her subjects as plaything for her own amusement. Sound like somebody she utterly loathes?
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alexwarlorn Featured By Owner Jun 15, 2012
Or Discord was being nostalgic. He wants to eat his cake and have his cake.

He wants to be happy like he was as Dissey, but at the same time continue to feed his love of complete confusion and sadism and just plain bonkers ponies.
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Kendell2 Featured By Owner Jun 15, 2012
Yeah, true. And that's why he CAN'T be truly happy, he can't give up his fun despite knowing he was probably truly happier as Dissy. My opinion anyway.
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HMorris73 Featured By Owner Jan 2, 2012
I enjoyed this a lot. The characterization of Celestia and Discord is great, and it fits *very* well with the main story. It even clarifies a few points from it like the reasons behind Celestia and Luna's different fates in the Discorded and Reharmonized timelines (and what an interesting For Want of a Nail situation that whole thing is).
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Kendell2 Featured By Owner Jan 3, 2012
Thanks, I'm glad you liked that part. I was thinking "why did Discord do that to them in one timeline but turn Celestia into a filly and try to drive Luna insane in another"? In the Discorded timeline, Twilight broke in the maze but didn't in the real one, so that had to be the point of divergence. So all it took after that was filling in the blanks!
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HMorris73 Featured By Owner Jan 3, 2012
Yep, now all that's left is to pinpoint the "nail" which caused that divergence... :sherlock:
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Kendell2 Featured By Owner Jan 3, 2012
Yeah, true. Though I think it would be that in the Epilogue Timeline, Twilight never realized the Elements were in Ponyville while in the main timeline, she did. So I guess that would be the nail.
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HMorris73 Featured By Owner Jan 3, 2012
Maybe, but let's take that a step further. She realized where the Elements were because Discord himself inspired her to take a closer look at his riddle after she accused him of cheating, the implication being he knew that the Elements failing would be the final straw that would break her. This evidently didn't happen in the Epilogue Timeline. As a matter of fact looking back now at Discorded Twilight Sparkle she mentions that she doesn't have her horn, which means that Discord even hadn't shown up and restored it yet. This leads me to think that Discord himself must be the nail, if he had waited a bit longer instead of popping up and declaring the game over right away after Rainbow Dash left the way he did he would have won.

Of course if all this is true it leads to the question of why Discord ended the game right away in the Reharmonized Timeline but didn't in the Epilogue Timeline...
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Kendell2 Featured By Owner Jan 3, 2012
True, though that means Twilight must've realized that Discord cheated in the Reharmonized timeline, which is why she didn't break when Rainbow flew away. In the Discorded timeline, she gave up hope then and there. At least that's how I see it.
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HMorris73 Featured By Owner Jan 3, 2012
Could be, looking at it that way you could say the reason Discord didn't show up right away is because he knew Twilight had already started breaking. So then the difference must lie in Twilight...
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Kendell2 Featured By Owner Jan 3, 2012
Very, true. So Twilight is the nail.
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Richforce Featured By Owner Dec 30, 2011
Nice job, I liked that part ou mentioned about Chaos having a role in the order of things. I was going to use it in a story I'm doing in lines of something like "It is through adversity that we grow"
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Kendell2 Featured By Owner Dec 30, 2011
Thanks! I'm glad you liked that part. I felt that Pinkie is good proof of why chaos can be a good thing.
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jawmax Featured By Owner Dec 30, 2011
Real good! I was wondering if someone was going to write this side of the story. Also maybe Celestia may want to talk to Luna about how she still worries about thier subjects being afraid of them. I hope Alex put's that somewhere.
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Kendell2 Featured By Owner Dec 30, 2011
Thanks! I'm glad you liked it, and that it fits the tone of the series!
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alexwarlorn Featured By Owner Jan 3, 2012
A reharmonization chapter is the logical next step.
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Kendell2 Featured By Owner Jan 4, 2012
I know, I'm planning one.
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alexwarlorn Featured By Owner Jan 4, 2012
Cool.
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Toonwatcher Featured By Owner Dec 30, 2011
Okay, I'm counting this as part of Alex's story, even though he didn't write it. It just fits too well into the continuity for me to exclude it.
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Kendell2 Featured By Owner Dec 30, 2011
Thanks! I'm glad I did it so well that you feel like that! I am a Beta Reader, so that might have had something to do with it.

Thanks for the fav!
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alexwarlorn Featured By Owner Dec 30, 2011
Here's hoping you pull of Celestia's reharmonization just as well.
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Kendell2 Featured By Owner Dec 30, 2011
I shall do my best to do it. I'm just glad I got the feeling of the series right for this one.
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alexwarlorn Featured By Owner Dec 30, 2011
Like I said. I felt we should have seen more of filly Celestia's antics. But oh well. It got it's message and meaning across. So I guess maybe it's better it didn't overstay it's welcome.
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Kendell2 Featured By Owner Dec 30, 2011
True, and the story didn't need to go on longer, I felt I got the point across.

BTW, did you pick up the quotes from the actual show in the things Discord forced Celestia to listen to?
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alexwarlorn Featured By Owner Dec 30, 2011
I picked up some. At any rate. Good story.
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HayesAJones Featured By Owner Dec 29, 2011  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Very cool. Discord turning Celestia pink is very clever, both in reference and as something the kind of chaos would actually do.
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Kendell2 Featured By Owner Dec 29, 2011
Thanks, I was going to just have him turn her mane pink, but I decided it'd be funnier this way.

Anything else stick out to you?
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HayesAJones Featured By Owner Dec 29, 2011  Hobbyist Digital Artist
The full names and subtle backstories. I liked that you hinted at some kind of war between the alicorns and draconequi that wiped out both, and 'Typhon' is a cool last name for Discord.
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Kendell2 Featured By Owner Dec 29, 2011
You and Alexwarlorn, who is the author of the fanfic this is a fanfic of, so yay!
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alexwarlorn Featured By Owner Dec 29, 2011
An incredible piece of work.
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